I originally wasn’t sure if I wanted to write this or not, but after a while i felt compelled to if it will help people see through the bullshit because it took me a long time to see through it myself.
A few years ago my friend introduced me to the law of attraction, and eventually i myself stumbled upon the book ‘The Secret’. Now i absolutely love that book, and in all honesty i can say it changed my life completely and i had never felt better. I had suffered from major depression since a young teenager so receiving the knowledge in ‘The Secret’ really helped me in more ways than one, and i was so happy . I was manifesting amazing things, even things most people wouldn’t believe. Then a friend introduced me to Teal Swan, and that’s when everything changed.
The friend who introduced me to her was an avid follower and supporter of hers and i trusted him and his opinion so i began watching her youtube videos wanting to see what she was all about. I originally liked that she talked so in depth about everything, and gave a lot of information on people and how and why they feel the way they do and in turn how that affects your reality via the law of attraction. If I’m honest if she never mentioned the law of attraction i would have never even bothered looking in to her ‘teachings’. I then began watching her videos religiously, completely addicted to this self defeating hole that seemed to keep swallowing me up the more in to her stuff i got. I began to become very depressed again, possibly worse than what i ever was before. I started manically over thinking everything as she often counteracts what the secret said so i was often in a depressive state of confusion that i couldn’t escape. ‘Who’s right about how the LOA works? Her or the secret or someone else?’
A lot of her beliefs and attitudes towards many different topics completely opposed what i had always believed myself (such as her opinion on suicide, her being an alien?, her way of teaching the law of attraction – that you have to do inner child work and go back and sort of ‘fix your childhood’ in your mind for loa work for you – that positive thinking alone isn’t enough, your childhood and your parents are the reason and should be blamed for all your troubles etc) and this really fucked me up no exaggeration. It was all so confusing, weird and contradicted everything i had believed myself. It put me in a state of turmoil, i was trying to do her inner child work and yet every time i tried it i got even more depressed and unable to get out of it, yet she makes out its basically necessary to do to attract what you want and good experiences in to your life. I felt powerless to change my life or how i felt because she made me believe that the reason for the bad things and feelings were stuck in the past, and since inner child work or whatever didn’t seem to ‘work’ for me i felt powerless, unable to change my life or be happy because i cant change the past, and like i was constantly doing everything wrong.
If I’m honest i think one of the reasons i felt like she was right and i had to follow her way was because i was talking to that friend who introduced me to her every day almost all day who basically just repeated what she taught and constantly gave me reasons why she was correct in her teachings, he had ingrained it all in to my brain as i was listening to it constantly every day from him, and so i started to believe that this is the way we have to live our lives, and as i did i was basically just falling down a rabbit hole of darkness, depression and confusion.
It took a long time but eventually i started to wake up to what was happening, i had lost so much of my sense of self while following her and my friend that i actually felt like i didn’t know who i was anymore for a while.. My parents started to subtly try and get me to see what was happening, and wanted me to cut contact with my friend as they could see i was changing in to a different person in a very negative and detrimental way. Now I’m so glad they did that, and i appreciate it so much as it helped me see the truth of the situation, of Teal swan and her teachings and of my friend.
I want to add that i recognise no one forced me in to this, i let myself get warped in because i was vulnerable and still just a teenager-young adult really. But again that In my opinion shows how much influence she has and how dangerous she is. Her influence on people and especially kids, teens and young adults (as they’re very impressionable) seriously worries me.
I became dependent on her opinion for everything, i lost my sense of self and opinion on everything because i felt like only she had the right answer to everything, and she seems to think she does.
My friend who i talked about is still an avid follower, has changed massively since following her (literally a different person inside and out) and is now trying to follow in her footsteps of teaching others. I wish him no harm as i recognise everyone gets a choice and can believe and do what they want, and i do not blame him for anything as it was me who let myself get that way and believe in teal swan, which is a mistake i will never make again, but i do hope anyone who goes to see him as a client is wary and not sucked in by him either, as he has no therapist qualifications whatsoever just her teachings.
Sorry this post is so long, but i just want everyone to know that she is dangerous, especially because she is so influential and is trying to be a therapist without any training whatsoever. She can make people dependent on her (i was) and its scary, and yes it is exactly like the dependency on a cult leader.
There is so many fake ‘teachers’ online, just copying genuine writers and other peoples teachings and changing them and sprouting them as their own version of the best way on how to live your life, so be aware, don’t trust everyone on the internet, check the facts, do research on the people your listening to, listen to any warning bells you may get when listening to someone teach and remember to always trust your own opinion regardless of how god like and all knowing someone may project themselves to you.
Thank you for this website, thank you for allowing us to post our experiences and i hope that telling a brief synopsis of my story does help someone in some way.